The truth.

I'm scared.

Really.

I get reminded.

Hit smack dab in the face with my own selfishness
and my own failings,
and my own everything.

I get reminded.

I read these words that I wrote.
That came from deep down inside of me,
and I notice that I've stumbled a little bit.
I've lost my way.
I've come a little bit away from where I was.

But in a way,
I've gotten better.
I feel it more deeply.
I understand it better.
It fits better in my thoughts,
in my mind.

Yet, I am reminded.

That I need to stop,
and remember why I'm here.
It's not for me.
Oh,
no.
It's for Him.
and for You.
and for everyone else besides myself.

de vous.

for you.
i wait up at night.
and for you
i write letters and poems
and for you
i sing songs
and for you
i take photos
and for you
i smile
and for you
i ache
and for you
i say words that i would never say to another person
and for you
i would lay down my life
and for you
for you
for you.

and you.
you are not singular.
but you are the only one.
you are more.
you are someone close,
and far into my future.
but more than anything,
you are my lord,
who has saved me,
and kept me,
and loved me,
so well.

I do believe I have been changed for the better.

11 Things from this year that blew my mind:

1. The musical
2. Family reunion
3. Josh Groban concert
4. going to see Les Mis
5. Getting accepted into CCS
6. National Portfolio Day
7. getting a job
8. Crusaders ♥
9. being a senior
10. march for life
11. W I C K E D

12 things which the new year holds

1. graduating
2. going to college
3.summersummersummer
4. F L O R I D A
5. another musical? :)
6. being more catholic
7. (doctor who season 7)
8. new people, new friends :)
9. good times, good old friends <3
10. exploring photography to the fullest
11. getting my license!
12. change

I'm hopelessly, crazily, stupidly in love...

with Legally Blonde (the musical).
So there's that.

that is all.

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