Dying is something worth living for.

Anyhow,
that has absolutely nothing to do with my post. first off, im here to vent, so if your not interested in my vent, you can leave.
I recently finished a little writing project of my own and reviewed some stuff i was working on before the project ate my life. it stinks.
okay. maybe not "stinks" but...im unsatisfied with it. that seems to happen a lot with me and my writing. my lack of satisfaction.
so i asked myself..."what do i really want out of my writing?"
1. complete originality. mine. the book. it needs to have it's own...life. world, while remaing in the one we live in. it needs to be so clearly unique, that it makes your heart ache. and that made no sense, so...onward!
2.something that people will read and think, "WOAH! that totally blew my freaking mind. I think I'll read it again, and then some." kind of like what Shannon Hale did to me when I read the Goose Girl and Forest Born. Or Walk Two Moons. stuff like that.
3. i want it to R E A L L Y tell a story. i want it to be so magnifiicently story-tastical that...i don't know...*sigh*
4. i reallyreallyreallyreally want it to be mine. like as in, when you read my book, you think "no one could have written that except Naomi. no one." but most of freaking all....
5. I want the characters to be perfectly unperfect. I want them to be relatable, and lovable, and completely and totally unique in there own. i want them to be a shadow of myself, or rather what i wish i was, or whatever. and i want them to tell their story well, and play it out well, and not get too depressed.
6. i want it to make M E feel great. i mean, it needs to satisfy me. for the time being though, i think im stuck in a desert of writing, and the oasis is waiting in the book i have inside of me.
unfortunately, that doesn't mean im going to stop. but i think, im going to take a little break, read a whole lot of books, listen to a lot of music, and sing a little.
until further writing,
muchlove,
naomi.
i think im going to go watch a movie.

Mi Manchi.

Dear World,
you are so full of decision, that I am terrified of you.
It may be my own insecurity, my lack of will to make a firm decision, but it doesn't stop me from being absolutely terrified at what lies ahead. So why to I yearn to get there so quickly.
Help me live in the NOW, Lord. And help me be happy for what I have NOW.
There's so much ahead, and so much behind, but there's so much more here, now, present.
So without further ado, I state the now.

Songs of Now:
Mi Mancherai, Josh Groban Featuring Joshua Bell.
Superstar, Taylor Swift.
Beating My Heart, Jon McLaughlin
Details in the Fabric, Jason Mraz
Orange Colored Sky, Michael Buble
Hey Soul Sister, Train
All The Right Moves, OneRepublic.

Thought of Now:
~What is a cynic? A man who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing~Oscar Wilde. (he is awesome)

Book of Now:
Another Faust~Daniel Nayeri.
Oh, I've bragged about this one before...? Well, excuse me, I like it :)
Belle-Cameron Dokey

School of Now:
Shakespeare. Nattty Bumppo. Geometry and US history.

Movie of Now:
PoTo...now and forever ;;;;;)))
Return to Cranford=YES
Pom Poko-by Studio Ghibli. About Racoons. Can't go wrong :)

What else of Now?
I need new headphones; my room's a mess;booksbooksbooks; i need to sleep more; i need to drink more water; i need to excersise more; i need to decide more.

Each day happens to be a gift. Let's live like it's one.

muchlove,
naomi

Onward.

hullo world. i found this while looking at some old drafts. it seems they are answers to the letters to the editor i did way back when. enjoy :)


dear naomi,
yea. we know. we stink.
sincerely,
the tigers.

dear naomi,
i read your letter.
i'm gonna go and be depressed at how i was never really needed for the twins because we got whooped by the yankees.
joe nathan.

dear naomi,
I K R, RIGHT?!
love,
fredrick

dear naomi,
madame i bid you welcome,
did you think that i would not answer?
why would i not answer,
when none of these sins are yours?
♫
PotO

dear naomi,
in the times you feel like you've fallen from grace.
yep.
t.a.n

dear naomi,
i know you want me to come out with more books.
yes.
shannon hale.

dear naomi,
haha.
love,
facebook.

dear naomi,
imma letcha finish...
kanye west

dear naomi,
come here,
i need to be done.
*evil laugh*
algebra 1

dear naomi,
i know, dear.
love,
camera.

dear naomi,
i don't get nervous.
thank you,
tate forcier.

dear naomi,
it's the other way around.
and you know,
we'll get another one.
matt stafforrd.

dear naomi,
we will.
right?
red wings :)

to where you are.

Lately this:

EverySong:

Project to listen to every song on my mp3 player, because I know I haven't gotten close. at the moment I've gotten through about 100. And due to this, the last couple kitchen cleanings have been spent with Josh Groban Christmas music. 0.o enjoyable, just not the right time.

School is going along pretty well. It's more time consuming than it has been in a while, just because I've got some new subjects.

Brothers went off on the March for Life and the house is quiet. I don't mind much. But more kitchen work. I mind that. :P I think next year I shall go on the March. It looks fun :)

As excited as everyone gets about snow, it is less than thrilling in the photography department. I mean, it makes for a dull background. and dull pictures. *sigh* I would very much like a model to photograph. yet.

I have some form of writing in me and it refuses to get out. *sigh*sigh*sigh*

muchlove,

naomi

a heart in a soul.

but as the night came round

i heard its lonely sound

it wasn't roaring,

it was weeping.

muchlove,

naomi

more pictures @gracenblack

Life sets in.

-We started school this week. Alas, I only have two subjects. which means more life than school.
-I'm dieting. or something like that. no sweets, no snacks. more excersise. abs in the morning. stuff like that. does pop count as sweets? i dont know. i was lessthanthrilled when i lookedatmyweightonthescale:PPPP so yeahhh.
-i gots me a new phone :) though i may need to throw a strip of tape on the back jsut to make it feel more like home.
-im writing stuff. like ideas just keep pouring into my head, and it's hard to stay on one thing. im trying.
-beautiful book- "another faust" daniel nayeri (im not sure if thats the right spelling. i havent even finished it and im reccommending it. it's pretty bamazing :) i bought it for my friend for christmas and she ended up lending it to me so i could read it and she thought it was really good.
-my reading has been kinda a fail lately though... *sigh*
-*sigh* life sets in.
-walking through our mountains of snow made some photographs. ill get around to it. tomorrow maybe? i dont know it will work out though.
-go Bama <3<2<1 :)

ill keep up someday
muchlove,
naomi