Gus, don't be Canada.

♥

i've come to grips with the situation.

we're such dear old friends,

beneath the moonless sky,

and we're looking for the beauty underneath,

and it's so beautiful.

so,

devil take the hindmost,

until i hear you sing once more.

*translation*:

i'm a sucker.
i'm a fool.
i'm an antisocial,
angst-ful,
music fueled,
child.
and

i am extremely blessed.

and

i need to remember that more.

naomi

helpless

it makes me feel,

i dunno,

kinda helpless?

i guess.

i dont like that feeling.

drowning,

dropping,

falling sort of feeling,

flailing my arms to catch hold,

and feeling nothing.

like there's nothing i can do.

helpless.

♪♫

i don't have words,
not this time,
to help me understand.

i only have music.

naomi

family.

they all pull in, right on vrazo-time.

and there are lots of us, because there always are, and we sit and stand and talk,

and the awkwardness of not having seen each other in a long time washes away,

with the talk of common things,

and everyone is family,

and the ones who weren't just a few months before,

are welcomed with wide smiles.

and we catch up in lives, and learn new things,

over a little bit of good food.

and there's little child-laugh,

and grown-up chatter,

and lots,

lots,

of smiles.

because we are gathered here in this living room,

strengthening the connection of the lives we'd entwined long ago.

we are living together, and feeling together,

in the comfortableness that one can only feel with family,

the comfort of knowing that you are part of this,

that you are loved and accepted for you.

and there's so much noise for a couple of moments,

and pianos and guitars and drums and something i don't know the name of,

and people

shout above the noise,

and smile at the sound.

and this is all okay, this noise,

because we've never been really all that orderly,

all that normal,

and this is us.

we are loud,

we are crazy,

we are silly,

and happy,

and loving,

and we are family.

this year.

i am having absolutely no social life,
because i am going to,
get the rest of my school done,
and be able to do nothing next year.
and be extra smart.
that's my story and i'm sticking to it!
hopefully, this will happen.

ineedaslurpeelikenownownow.

my sanity levels this past week have been at an all time low.
and i don't like feeling sorry for myself.
and other people have actual problems.
soyeah.
life.
naomi

sometimes i scream.

Muffins.

those^ cousins coming this weekend.
i like cousins.
true story.
lolmylife:
have a good day!
naomi

inspire.

http://christineolsonphotography.blogspot.com/
she's a favourite.
and i stumbled upon her blog by chance.
:)
yeppers.
naomi

[Title]

shot with my dear friend gabrielle :)
at delia, a g a i n, but whatever.
a n d. with film♥ you know.
naomi

soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...

inception again?

yeah.

it's supposed to go to 90 today.
i'm wearing jeans and a hooded sweatshirt.
all the people around my house are overly warm-blooded.
or something.
naomi

i'm dying to believe

because sometimes there are nights when i dont sleep,
and i spend the night listening to my gooveshark playlist three times over,
eating jelly beans,
trying to read,
picking paint off my desk,
yawning,
pretending that i think i can write,
then writing nothing,
at all,
and mostly wasting my life on my computer.
im less than 90% positive this has nothing to do with the slurpee i had earlier.
you know.
soooooooooooooooooooo...
right.
i was going somewhere with this.
i try
(pretend to)
sleep now.
naomi

(notmine)

oh, inception.
i would like to go see you again. asap.
anyhow.
so i was like, wow look at that awesome picture of fischer...
i should do a blog post!
because there being an awesome picture of some guy from inception totally spawns into a blog post.
you know.

somedays, i think i have some sort of problem with my focus, even though that's untrue.
because i can focus like a beast
(is that a dumb simile? yeah. i know)
on guitar hero.
but, i think it's hard for me to focus on things that matter.
like ill sit and flit about with songs and stories and random
(and relatively dumb)
thoughts in my head, and when it comes to important things like
being nice
and thinking positively
and getting motivated
and God.
yeah, then my minds wants to be somewhere else.
and something made me really think today.
would i be on that boat?
because i was reading many waters by madeline l'engle (terrific book),
and all i could think about after i finished was,
would i be on that boat?
right now.
i don't know. i'd like to be able to say yes, yes i would. but i don't know if i could.
it's not like ill ever have to face that predicament
(i'm thankful for that, mr. rainbow)
or anything, but it's like, if i did
what would i do?
would i be on that boat?
it frightens me to think about it,
but it helps me to realize all the things i still need to do, to be,
just simple stuff.
like being nice,
and to stop thinking too highly
(like i'm better than anyone else)
of myself,
and being respectful,
not resentful.
and praying.
(ill be working on these).

well. it seems that awesome picture of that dude from inception did spawn a blogpost.
wahlah.
naomi

this song blows my mind.

Time

Hans Zimmer

from Inception

the whole soundtrack really blew my mind(as did the movie),
in general.
this is a cool link: live performance of the whole thing at the premier of the movie.
the song above is the best one, in my opinion, and is performed in the last 5ish minutes of the video.
enjoy.

naomi

tell me that you'll open your eyes.

im behind (a l o t) on my reading list.
but you know what?
i'm really not very worried.

naomi

ohyaknow.

i had too much caffeine today. thus i am up right now.
i was clearing out my picture, and i love picasa. very much.
anyhow, i was looking through the pictures of our texas trip two years ago.
oh, i miss their faces veryveryvery much.
sigh.
i shall make it to november!
(or not)
okay, now i am frustrated because i was all like oh! there are three awesome things happening in november! 1) abi's wedding(d u h), 2) im turning sixteen! (like that really means anything. i cant drive.)
and 3)...
...
...
this is driving me insane.
...
...
oh!
i j u s t remembered! :D
NaNoWriMo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(why im so excited for this is beyond me. i mean, im already knee deep in writing as it is, and by that time ill be knee deep in schoolwork as well, and in all other sorts of things. plus, you lose so much sleep. but i am extremely excited for that.)
anyhow,
i hate making two blogposts in one day, but all of a sudden i had a ton of stuff to write and yeah.
i had too much caffeine.
in case you didn't notice.
uhum.
why is everyone getting so old all of a sudden?
everyone is graduating -.-
somedays, i wish i was older, then other days i wish i was youger, when everything was simpler...
oh idontknow.
i really should be taking this lack-of-sleeping as an advantage to read because im behind on my reading list, but of course im not. okay.
im going to go read.
that slurpee was not a good thing
(ohyeah, i know it totally was)
blessings,
naomi

in a very quiet sort of song way lately.

snow patrol
secondhand serenade
jack johnson
james morrison


butofcourse.
ohyaknow.

naomi